murasaki yukiko の日記

Friday, October 30

迷いの感じ　そんな強い。心によく感じていた。
君の言葉、どうして易しくないの？
解らない、どうするでいい？
この恋の意味は何？意味を探しでいます

Garth Brooks- More Than A Memory

Is when you're dialing 6 numbers just hang up the phone
Driving across town just to see if he's home
Waking a friend in the dead ofthe night
just to hear him say its gonna be alright
When you're finding things to do, not to fall asleep
cause you know he'll be there in your dreams
that's when he's more than a memory...

♥ murasakiyukiko

10:08 AM

Tuesday, October 27

Some pictures that I missed out
On Sunday, we had Deevapali Lunch at Mayuri's place
and it was damn shiok cos I drove my dad's car all the way down to CCK
I have to admit that I was kinda scare as the journey was far -.-

yup me and my multi-racial friends.
we're a very good example of racial harmony in Singapore
the ironic thing is that we throw the most racist things at one another
and we laugh about it together hahahhahas

Double O on Saturday night.

The 7 wonders that they force on Sebas

The expression after 1 shot glass, only one

I couldnt imagine the rest. I remb there was another round of 7 wonders

but Ben, jovin and rynn help him cleared some of it.

♥ murasakiyukiko

9:52 PM

Monday, October 26

Sebas birthday celebration at Double O on Saturday night

sebas and gf Rynn

the 7 wonders force down on Sebas hahahs

playing group 5-10 in a wicked attempt to make jovin drunk

that's kira on the left and evelyn(ben's mei mei on the right)

seh lia seh liao
he damn easy to bluff sial

and soon ben was down cos he drank alot while playin 5-10 with Marcia hahahs

gone le gone le

sexy rynn

Happy 22nd Sebas !!!

look at jovin the drunk bf stealer

it was the first time that I saw Ben drunk

and I think he really drank ALOT

hahahhas he's so kaupeh and cute at the same time when he's drunk

and while being drunk he can still manage to be so sweet to me

dont I just love him ?

just how and what would I be without this Super Lover :)

♥ murasakiyukiko

12:16 AM

Monday, October 19

BABIES AND BUNNIES

in every pic, there is a smaller version at the bottom of it

and that's me baby zi qi

the actual real life doll on top is my baby bro zi heng

look at the fat bastard. so fat

or is it just that children from my family are meant to be fat ???

my father was very excited to show me these pictures

so that I can see the similarities between me and my baby brother
FUNNY I think all babies look the same that's why ba ??

cos I look like my mother and nothin like my dad

while he looks like my father

and we dont share the same mother -.-

complicated.

sharan and fiza is making fun of my baby pictures

cos they are kinda amused that my eyes are still the same

if i give the suprised look *_*

my ben ben start school liao, boring !

no one to entertain me online while I'm stuck in school with all the sian-ness

only got my pinkbit to smell while he smells my hearty bunny I gave him in the hosp

yup I am baby bunny and I'll always love my Darling wabbit :)

HURRAY to the King Wabbit and Queen Bunny Empire ~ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:27 PM

Saturday, October 17

Hi !!!! This is the President of STORM IG posting !

YES, I've been aiming this seat for so long now its finally mine wahahhahas
there were many more pictures from the photoshoot that time
but I slowly share a few here n there.

Fizah, my secretary
Yukiko, the president
Sharan my RIGHT vice-president
cos she insisted that she is recognise as the Right VP
as there is a Left VP Reena.

we are dramatic ppl who cam-whored at the facilities of Raffles Hospitality Centre

some of my STORM members included in the photoshoot

and our 2 lead advisors

yupss let me show off abit, sharan n my face is in the school webmail

click on it for a larger view =)

also, there will be another photoshoot for sharan and I

as we are nominated for SOH Star, I promised to let her have it

cos I already have the president post now.

But I'm going cos she's going la k

cant blame us for being too pretty that's why they always wanna use our face for free

We shall start charging the school soon hahahhas

And people, now that I have confirmed,

Ben and I happily back together.

We took broke up last Sunday but Monday morning I received a call from him

while crying he said to me he has 2nd thoughts about it.

The fact that I wont be going back home with him anymore makes him want to puke

and the impulsive act had led him to think of so many things.

He was reading through my letters, those I wrote when he was in army.

I said we should take a break and sort our thoughts out.

Those days that I couldnt eat and sleep,

the only rest I had was when I cried myself to sleep as I was too exhausted from the crying.

I'm just all messed up.

Tuesday morning came his msg, he's decided to be back

and I was very touched by his msg,

those appreciation I thought I deserved came to me all too overwhelming

he know's I've been such a big part of him and I'm someone he should cherish

but I wasnt very sure about how sure we will be able to cont this.

Now I know for sure,

we will continue :)

I love you, I always will

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:35 PM

Sunday, October 11

I will always love you.

The last day I have with my darling King Wabbit Ben
our eyes swollen and red by all the crying.

We had the same conversation over and over,
cried and cried, our relationship cannot go on.
we realise we have been ignoring the problems
and that its doing us no good,
leading us no where.

I cant accept the fact that we cant continue like we've always did,
resolve, change and work it.
Because I still love him, he still loves me
but our characters, personality dont clique.

It was a genuine 1 year,
but the rest was just spent to make up for each other
doing things the other party wants
and both of us are unhappy even when we try to be nice to one another.

You dont feel happy together with me, I'm in pain when not with you
Ironically I want you to be happy, I know I have to let go
but I cant and I will still grab any possibility of getting back together.
however, that wont happen, Ben is right
there is no point if he is already not happy and no longer enjoying time tgt.

Your feeling of the need to end the relationship was so strong.
But on this last day with you,
our healthy break up made me understood.
We are not meant to be no doubt we still love each other.

From my point of view,
there is still space for salvation, because we still love each other
only that personality is the issue
but we've already work through so many obstacles.
you either keep workin your way through
or find it too tiring to continue.
that's our difference.

Like what Ben has said,
someday I will understand that this is better. some day.
Now and currently there will be no one else that fills my head
and aches my heart, no one but Ben.

We thank each other for being the greatest love to one another for such a long time
Never will we forget how we treated, cared and loved one another
because he will always be my best boyfriend who taught me so much
and I will always be the girl who treated him best and showed him what is love.

I will always love you.

♥ murasakiyukiko

11:59 PM

Friday, October 9

Yesterday, on the 8th of October we celebrated our 19th month
1 year and 7 months.
Wow.

I love my ah Ben. Even if he is Betarded

We ate like there's no tomorrow hence a $78 ++ bill for only the 2 of us
luckily there was a $40 by the courtesy of Ben's supervisor :)

Tempura Ice cream is love :)

Esp when I have kor kor to feed me

yup but he spoilt my day due to certain inccident that happened and

he pissed me off damn damn much.

This always happens. When everything goes so well and started so great

he never fails to destroy whatever we have

by doing something stupid, sometimes guai lan

and the best is INSENSITIVE

Pissed by Ben

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:43 PM

Monday, October 5

Monday blues, sch reopen syndrome and earliest class what a combo !

but one good thing is that my team members are very contributive

and together,

they help me bring back memories of how I scored 91/100
for Principles of Accounts back in sec3.

yes I WAS that pro but I've burnt the textbook and vomitted all the infor back

once I left the examination halls years ago in 2006!

yup Financial Accounting is ok

well the killer is tmr, Business statistics, though I got a B+ for that in SIM,

just see how much I remember.

All right for the last few days of my holidays

it was well spent at Ben's, looking and working as free maid

plus completion of my PP. Now left touch up only leh !!!

last night we had dinner with boonchao

and left to play majong at shihao's.

darling was the big winner he gave me $5 -.- for cab fare cos I brought him out

I still remb he gave me $10, 1 year ago

he was afraid that I got no money to use when he's in India for training

and that no one will be that to pay for me

and like $10 canlast me very long sial ... ... -.-"

look at this little boy so engrossed with his Transformers toy

very cute hor !!??

and he's 22 years old leh, finish army already know !?

but still so child-like, even his face !

after school I'm gonna do my PP once and for all and submit

and I shall go home to dig out my pass textbooks :)

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:08 PM

Thursday, October 1

Somethings that I didnt officially mention in my blog ...

I'm officially Benwoon's maid
now that he's discharge from the hospital and at home -.-

pretty hor his maid ? would you die for a maid who looks like me hahhahahs

yup ben was injured on Saturday morning
that pundei lied to me saying he's working cos he didnt wan anybody to know.
so he now has a long long wound from his heel to half of his lower right leg

this was the hearty bunny that I gave him to keep him accompany
with it was my anna sui perfume
that he constantly keep it in his pocket and smell it to sleep

cute hor my ben ben :)

Tuesday I was back in school for this formal photoshoot to represent my course

those candid continuous shots hahahhas

interestingly, they'll move when you view them quickly