murasaki yukiko の日記

Thursday, August 27

Met michelle after Jap Class last night

I talked to my Dad already and I cant be bothered

its his problems if anything happens because I tried to tell him alrdy

thank you for listening everyone. thank you

♥ murasakiyukiko

5:36 PM

Wednesday, August 26

For your every mistake, I bare the consequences to it

There's a Chinese saying that, "Fu zhai zi huan"
its direct translated to "father's debt will be paid by the son"
it can also be translated to "what ever the parents misdeeds,
the next generation will be the one getting it."

For his very first mistake of getting someone pregnant,
my insignificant life was an accident that brought me to this world.
As for this mistake he made,
I have to bare the consequences of growing out without motherly love
and my childhood was never the same like the others.

You make my life difficult everytime people ask me about my parents relationship
and I have to answer to them how complicated my background and family is.
I havent and will not be starting about the feedbacks that people give it
and how those remarks made me feel throughout my past 19 years.

I dont appear to be affected by things doesnt mean I'm really not affected.
I choose to pretend I dont care for ignorance is a bliss
even if I have to self-deceive.

For the latest mistake you did,
I'm already getting sufficient mental torture by the people around
what is it that I owe to you in the pastlife that I have to endure such mistreatments
when I wasnt even the one making the decision for your actions?

Wont someone see things from my point of view and stop saying that I'm jealous?
Does anyone really care about how I would feel
when you say things that can lead to psychological effects inside me ?

I dont expect a future in me for I dont see a need in it.
I'll find somewhere that I can belong to.

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:43 PM

Tuesday, August 25

The most ridiculous request.

you people keep assuring me that things wont get biased
but thanks to jerry sim I can think strategically, thinking in time

Its fucking not my problem,
so you adults who proclaims to be so good at making the GOOD AND RIGHT decisions
stop making it my problem and affecting my insignificant life !

If you are incapable of taking care of a baby
and unable to fufill the responsibility of a mother
THEN DONT BE ONE IN THE FIRST PLACE.
there are things you need to give up when being a mother
and at your age its pathetic that you dont understand that.

I do understand that I dont belong anywhere
I'll go to somewhere else where you all dont exist,
I'll live happier that way.

*Claps and celebrates ~ !!!*

♥ murasakiyukiko

8:24 PM

Sunday, August 23

This week is my UT week
so I spent most of my time muggin at home with Big head pooh

one of the reasons why his head is so big
might be due to the fact that I'll vent my frustrations on him
whenever Ben irritates me or do anything to provoke me

hishead is like ten thousand times bigger than mine

you see he so naughty, use my laptop when I'm not around.
I think I bored until abit Siao alrdy -.-

This is the bed table that I bought from Giant 2 weeks ago
Its just the right thing I need to make my bed Super comfy :)
Cute hor my naughty baby big head pooh

And I wanted to show the new tv in my living room
also came about 2 weeks ago,
wa lau ...
its so big until it makes my pooh bear look minute lah SEE !!!

that's about it nothing much

spent the whole saturday with Ben studying

and disturbing each other during our break times

its a routine for us to watch channel U at 1130 on Sat nights (for the past 3 weeks)

and laugh at our favourtie Jacky Wu hahhahas

and that,

I think I flung my sales management and marketing is chui for me

market sensing was ok and one last paper to go ont tuesday and that's it !

I'm enjoying every inch of my cosy Princess of Purple room

cause I've just done cleaning it

and I shall watch movie on my tiny 24inch LCD tv

compared to the 42 inch one in the living room

Have a great week ahead people if there's anyone reading !

♥ murasakiyukiko

5:32 PM

Monday, August 17

Happy 1st Month !
Sunday was the celebration for my babybro
at the ulu-ageted chalet safrah resort
I spent so much time driving every one around and my parking skills sucks!
cant blame me right!?
you so smart u P-plate park BMW sucessfully one shot show me la ...

okies here's Chen Xiao Di photos

this one look like my father sial

CUTE RIGHT !?

drunk by milk

BURPED !

see how the brothers are so alike in actions and expressions ?

there was a swing and my 2 cousins are occupied with it

so did my grandpa who wanted to act cute

then I joined in HAHHAHAS

while the mahjong was fully blocked by the adults

we kept ourselves entertained with cards

The MMM,
Michelle the Model in Making

shi hao, michelle

Slow pig and Fat

Me and Ben

We so serious sial, play taiwanese heart attack only

we really had alot of fun, excitement n adrenaline rush in this game sial

thanks to xiaomin's slowness and retardedness that sent us laughing mad

And it was time to take rest so I went to disturb chen xiao di

When we came back from a walk the girls had to leave

while we played mahjhong.

I was damn reluctant to play money cause I'm damn broke

and I really lose like mad

so I got my daddy to save me wahhahahs

within 15 mins my dad won back all that I've lost

in the past 1 hour -.-

Saturday night I planned a surprise dinner for Ben

together with his Boonchao, sixian, jovin,yongyun and cheryl

I'll upload the pics when jovin tags me :)

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:54 PM

Thursday, August 13

Happy Birthday to BenWoon !!!
we celebrated his 22nd brithday yesterday
because his classmates are more important than I am
so I dont get to celebrate with him on the actual day

Swensen's
ask him take picture of him
he took mine and took ugly photos somemore -.-

For revenge I took his ugly pics too

WAHAHAHAHAHAS UGLY RIGHT !?

My happy ah Ben gorging on all the food that's in such humongous proportion

look at the awesome layers !

Benwoon the Big mouth squeeze all the food in one shot

And then the pundek ordered too much he couldnt finish

He was so full but he didnt forget to act cool
Still dare tell me he want ice cream and he started to whine like a 5-year-old

HUAT AR !!!!!!

on loan from Daddy one -.-

this month with all the birthdays and Ben's one being the money-sucking one

next year my birthday I swear I kah his money up to $400

yes, I'm that calculative HEARTPAIN LA

I told Ben if he doesnt finish all the food I'm not paying

Ben " Got how many times you couldnt finish and I was the one who paid ?"

Me " I forgot liao "

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHS !

One of my weird fetish is to hide behind my boyfriend and smell his Dunhill perfume

I love my handsome kor kor with sexy eyes !

SHHHhhhhhhh ... This Saturday there's a big surprise for Ben :)

♥ murasakiyukiko

10:00 PM

Tuesday, August 11

Out with Ben, his mom, his brothers and carissa :)

his mom wanted to have a celebration for Chance and Ben's birthday

chance's one was on the 8th while ben's on the 13th

lunched at crystal jade and caught the movie Where got ghost !?

and back to his mom's place to cut their cake

my boyfriend and my bestfriend are brothers !!!!!!!

I cant stop laughing, Ben IS a BETARDED

my dad says " he like durian havent ripe"

in hokkien it means still childish, hahahahhas I AGREE !

just look at the pictures you'll understand la ...

the Betard eyeing on the cake

Formal photo because none of the 3 brothers are capable of seriousness

I dont know what the fuck is this, seriously HE IS 22 sial

chance is another dick -.-

Ben is retarded = Betarded

his mom says Ben looks like a nerd,

really like some kuku, gonna help him post on facebook
I'll see how he go school WAHAHHAHHAS

group photo, Ben had to destroy it by jumping in and showing his sexy ass

He tried scarring the doggies,

by roaring at them damn loudly
and got a scolding from his mom hahahas

siblings/brothers fight dont they ?

but I didnt expect at such anage they still physically fight

and they raced to the block back home

chance took the lift

and ben ran up the stairs

just so to see who get to bath first hahhahhas

yup my boyfriend and best friend

I forgot to mention we celebrated our 17th month on Saturday
Queen Bunny still loves this guy no matter how retarded,

childish, stupid and irritating he gets.

he'll forever make me angry and really makes me wanna give up on him at times
but sometime I think he's just a kind hearted kid,

trapped in a sexy hot body and under a handsome face

who is capable of taking all my nonsense, Princess attitude and weirdest demand,

love me like the best boyfriend in the world,

sayangs me like the most dependable big brother,

and cares for me like my bestfriend

My King wabbit my betarded :)

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:21 AM

Monday, August 10

MY FATHER FINALLY LEND ME HIS CAR !!!!!!!
for all of you may know, my dad only allows me to drive his car when he is in it
but today he finally let me drove out alone :)
there was this offer for B-power petrol at SHELL from 4pm to 5pm
so my dad was working and couldnt go pump his petrol
and he wanted me to help him do so

My Dad and my conversation ...
" I dont want help u pump petrol cause u look down on me say I cannot park"
" hahahhahs ok la u drive carefully lor"
" u lend me car go out then i help u pump petrol"
" -.- ... humphx ok ... ... "
my dad looks outta the window and sees the massive long queue at Shell
" NO need go liao la "
" huh then how then how !!??? "
" nvm la u drive carefully ar !? "
so goes on emphasizing on his modified low car body,
that I must stop before the hump,
and reverse in when parking the car bla bla bla
all the way from me bathing, makeup, do my hair and get outta the hse

I wanted to go GIANT went Bedok to fetch Ben ask him pei me
I was super mad at him for we are supposed to go ION orchard
but that pundek Betarded coporal woon overslept by 3 hours 0.0
and he still dare laugh madly at how slanted my car was parked
PUI at me somemore cos my standard can pass driving license when he failed twice
and finally got the bed table for my laptop
while Ben and I did abit of grocery shopping
machiam newly wed hahahhahs

I drop Ben off to fetch michelle
cos I was kinda guilty that she ask me to fetch her ytd but I didnt
and I drove to parkway parade
michelle starts spamming picture then I asked her help me take more

hahahhas damn shiok la, my first time driving my dad's BM without him in it

look at my fat arms, I'm starting to put on
from 45kg to 48kg, I should stop eating so much.
or is it to start eating more ????
cos my body works vice-versa at times -.-

I've got to be honest that I was kinda blur

and took quite a few wrong turns on my way back
hahahhahas

so it was dinner at home with michelle

my dad enjoys talkin to her

back to suck Ben's personal time away from him at his place

and back home :)

nights people !

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:04 AM

Thursday, August 6

Wednesday
I took my Japanese exam last night
Not so confident though I could understand most of it

This is the latest LG viewty color,

not really new but the fact that its not available in Singapore but other countries

I'm so gonna buy this once its here !

I know I already have the white viewty couple phone with Ben

I dont mind having 2 exact same phones but different colors !

since I have 2 phones so why not ?

Purple's my favourite color what ... ....

Tuesday

sharan and fiza bought me this

because I was jealous that they bought it for mayuri n not me

wahahhahahs

this was my emo mo mo mo dressing on tuesday

Monday

skipped class halfway to go Chance's chalet

cos Sebas was gonna cab and bring me down too

so why not !?
hahahhas

chance likes to buy ALOT of food sial

keep telling me scare not enough food for bbq -.-

the husband and wife ok liao le
buying groceries together somemore

I just behind busy playing with the trolley lor

like fun racing through the supermarket

childhood memories sial

My old school gang

The close group of friends from sec sch

there should be aisyah and keehan in the photo

so as to make up the PKC gang

hahahhas

we were reminiscing on how our class keeps getting into trouble

how we are always called up so long shits happen in school

we will confirm be the culprits

memories sial

btw I missed out damn losta of fun cos I cldnt stay over

thanks to my dad, they were all damn high playing the drinking games and all la

sian !

in school there's this cute piece of rubbery candy

dunno what its called la

but its in a shape of a pig, I pass it to fiza and she insisted its not Hala

hahhahahhas

I put it in my mouth to take this pic

then I realise I'm suppose to share it with Sharanjeet

hahahhahas

I tired giving her half back but she dont want so too bad lor

wahahhahah

♥ murasakiyukiko

10:08 AM

Sunday, August 2

I was sleeping soundly through the noon due to my long Friday
then my Dad called and said
" wake up alrdy ? go out go out go out !"
" huh ? go where ? "
" I say buy you Gucci wallet rt ? we go see la "
" ZZZzzzzz ok I wake up now"

So I visited my cute babybro but I didnt carry him cos I'm still having cough
then I insisted on driving to Town and my Dad allow cos he's in the car
and back to Ben's place then he drove back himself
Shiokness !
The pedestrians in Town stared at me real hard esp those my age
you know those ah lian wannabes in thick make up exagerrating dresses
and SLIPPERS OMG
I dont know why but maybe because I was carryin a LV bag,
Gucci shopping bag and walking to the BMW driver's seat
furthermore in shorts and Tee, bet they damn pissed
Haiya I go buy wallet then go Ben's place liao wear so nice for what?
Wah then that cb stare at me nonstop when I was trying to exit far east
and I stopped the car waiting to get out
she was like happily talking n walking with her friends then suddenly stop to stare at me
my dad got stared by this guy on the road too and i swear he almost pick a fight
-.- my dad yeah .

Yeah !!!! the latest purple

Initially I wanted the light purple with normal brown canvas material
or the Gold with new laminated leather
but this was the latest pure whole leather purple
so I got my Daddy dearest to buy this instead
WUUU HUUUUUUUUUUUUU ~ !