murasaki yukiko の日記

Monday, September 29

2 things happened over the weekend that made me very happy
I passed my Final Theory Test on friday,
& I got into the Finals for my Jap Karaoke singing competition on Sunday.

but it wasnt a good weekend with Darling,
too many things were on my mind, it was really bad.
Maybe at times of anger all that we think about is each other's negativity,
so there goes all the sweet loving and everything.
The words you conveyed had hurt me very very deeply.
I'm sorry that my attitude and behaivour caused you headaches.
I reflect and wonder if all that I've done previously was in vain and is it worth it?
but everything's alright ...
because the both of us have this inability to get mad at each other ?
I cannot bare it seeing him mad as I'd feel just as bad inside.

This very far distance that we are at every night
Somewhere, I want to see you but I cant.
With only one last belief and strength,
in such pain, can Love still go on ?

But still, I love my Ben very much :)

I didnt wanna come to school today cos tue n wed I have school holidays
but as a hardworking girl drag myself outta the house
I saw Chance's friend who slacks at the coffeeshop outside school too
then we were talking and waiting for mo-fo bus 168
end up i say " we take cab ok ? "
SHIOKNESS !!!
hahahs but when i reached class,totally no mood to stay
no many turned up, the module -.- the faci -.-
so bye for now !

♥ murasakiyukiko

9:08 AM

Saturday, September 27

クラゲ、流れ星

遠いこの距離　毎晩のように
会いたくても　会えない頭のどこかにある
少しずれてるのかな　この星空さえも
あなたも同じように想ってくれてるの？

クラゲ、流れ星　見つけられたら
あなたの名前を　思い浮かべるよ
どんなイヤなとこ　知ってるのに
あなたのことこんなに　好きだよ

「恋している」そんなふうに呼ぶのかな
忘れようとすればするほど　欲しくなる
そんなにあなたとあたしは違うの？
どうしても二人にはなれない

クラゲ、流れ星　見つけられずに
あなたの言葉　もう忘れちゃいそうだよ
たった一つ信じている強さがあれば
苦しくなく好きでいられるのかな

クラゲ、流れ星　見つけられたら
あなたの名前を　思い浮かべるよ
どんなイヤなとこ　知ってるのに
あなたのことこんなに　好きだよ

This very far distance Just like we are every night
I want to see you, but I can't Just somewhere in my head
Maybe it's a little strange If only, this starry sky
You see it and think of it the same as me?

If I find that special falling star
Your name will float into my mind
Even though I know I don't want it to
I just love you that much.

"Falling in love" Is that what it's called?
The more I try to forget, the more I want you
Are you and I really all that different?
No matter what, I don't want to break up

If I don't find that special falling star
I might forget your words
With only one last belief and strength
In such pain, can love still go on?

If I find that special falling star
Your name will float into my mind
Even though I know I don't want it to
I just love you that much ...

this song reflects my exact feelings.

maybe we're not meant to be,
maybe I'm not perfect enough for you,
or rather, maybe I dont love you as much as I did before ...
what are the feelings when Love is lost ?

♥ murasakiyukiko

9:33 PM

Thursday, September 25

I love Michelle dearie ...
I like her comforting me, sayang-ing me and of course Loving me :)

At fitful moments in our pain-racked life
the hand of pleasure wipes away our tears
but pleasure passes like a fleeting shade
and leaves a legacy of pain and loss
the past for us is but a fond regret
hthe present grim, unless the future’s clear
If thought must end in darkness of the tomb
all will be well one day—–so runs our hope
All NOW is well, is but an idle dream
The wise deceive me: God alone is right,
With lowly sighing, subject in my pain
I do not fling myself against Providence
Once did i sing, in less lugubrious tone
the sunny ways of pleasure’s genial rule
The times have changed, and, taught by growing age
and sharing of the frailty of mankind
seeking a light amid the deepening gloom
I can but suffer, and will not repine.

—–Poem on the Lisbon Disaster

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:41 PM

Tuesday, September 23

I'm making good use of Dearie's camera :)

my breakfast and lunch for the day

sarah jie jie <3

jing mao the ah beng who always say me suan me scold me
hahahs he's fun lah

btw i cope his cap and wear til damn song hahhahs
i look nice in it what, right ?
haopeng is our Star Awards Best leading Male lead in class

my class, full of boys si bei sian ... no one to girl talk with me.

And they do this certain thing as a group that irritates me to the MAX
DOTA siao, its as if everyone in cls is playing and I seriously hates it can?

Irwin got a haircut and somehow I thought he reminded me of someone
he was like " Xie Ting Feng (Nicholas Tse) huh ? "
I was like " ya lor !!! abit leh ... I also think I look like ayumi WAHAHHAHHAS "
I'm so mean I know ...

this is sweet cassandra

Stupid Nicholas Didi hahahas

yea, I got huixian to pei me when the others didnt bother about me :(

Desmond goes everywhere with his food hahahhas
he is one of the few who are more steady in class I would say.

snap shot taken by haopeng ???

zi lian -.-

my latest love for this cartoon character by Otsuka Ai
Rabu-chan

we love bunnies :)

last but not least ... I do hope I make it to the Finals

♥ murasakiyukiko

9:48 PM

Sunday, September 21

Yesterday 20/9
My boyfriend's mother's birthday ...

I didnt know aunty is as good as me in all the cold jokes and cold riddles
HAHHAHHAS

this is cute Chancey
I showed his mom and she said " very nice leh, a lil dog n a lil pig"

this was on friday, Farz my mud brother birthday
His actual birthday is on 20/9
another Legal hahhahas
supposedly gonna go clubbin but ta money ar ...

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:01 PM

Friday, September 19

Hi as promised I was saying that I havent been posting pictures
about my class ... so here's the spam of 100 plus photos i took mainly ytd :)

me jing mao ethan

this stupid ah beng jing mao always scold me

this is hao peng another funny guy

us disturbing the people in the background of the picture

huixian who doesnt like vulgarities
so at time I can image how much she hates me
wahahhahhas !! no la she's nice

this is nisha... have I mentioned that my cls has 3 indian muslims ?

The very cute Cheng Shu she is SUPER bubbly and always happy !

our 10-lian-pai !!! 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10 .... all the way

disturbin kwee cheng cos she refuse to take picture with me

when she found out she gave such a loud shout that scared the cls

bcos usually she's the demure type wahhahas

this is Irwin, he's professional photographer

n I still happily be a noob go take pictures infront of him

as usual another victim when I'm bored

I'll just go around disturbing my whole class.

me jeremiah with the biscuit and matt

matt ...

more of cheng shu

jeremiah !!! he seriously can talk alot and doesnt let me talk at times-.-

this is stupid jing mao who always scold me
but still I reply with the same courtesy by bullying himn disturbing him

shamirah

tun keong

this is wei ren, ethan and me

FYI ethan is not a butch ! HE HE HE is HE !

I like ethan cos we always talk cock on our way back home

we both stay in Tampines and he has become my bus buddy

n we just talk n talk n talk ...

Nicholas ! when I'm bored in class and no one gives me attention

he is my last resort ... Victim of my bullying

My team members for Cognitive module

chong, nicholas, me, jon & cheng shu

Jaffir the bouncer his size like bodyguard sia

Jon !!! the first person who kindly replied my question

when I was late on the first day and dunno where's my team

kwee cheng and toni

toni is actually my sem 1 clsmate tiffany's roommate :)

that's all !!!

I'm so tired after posting this .... ....

and I'm actually in class when everyone is doing their presentations

Finally I'm gg shopping with my stepmom after 10, 000 years

I cant wait til after school :)

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:02 PM

Wednesday, September 17

Back to the arms of my lovely companions

they were fuckin hilarious

my khakis hahahhas

the view from me and my khakis' "chalet"

the twins felicia & sarah

sarah aka the ah lian from my class

and that's Jon ...
the first person to talk to me in my class
when i was late and didnt know where my group was
heheex

this is a picture of Ethan and his fire-breathing act
his head is the small red circle
that's how big the fire is !

this is our photographer of E37A

a random pic

red - desmond
pink - siew chong
blue - jing mao
orange - toni
yellow - ethan
purple - gui qing
green - haopeng

more pic to be taken n posted...
hahahs now that my webcam is working

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:38 PM

Sunday, September 14

I shld start taking pictures and be posting more about my class
'cause I realise I havent been blogging bout my funny classmates :)

thanks to Darling for his treat for our 6th month ...
I just feel something different,
or is it that I'm wanting more, asking for too much ?
Please show more often, that you actually care,
For I have feelings and I dont think you're aware.

愛すべき人がいて
時に　強い孤独を感じ
だけど　愛すべきあの人に
結局何もかも満たされる

愛すべき人がいて
時に深く深いキズを負い
だけど　愛すべきあの人に
結局何もかも癒されてる

理由なく始まりは訪れ
終わりはいつだって理由を持つ...

For the one that I love
Many a times I felt a strong feeling of loneliness
But because of the one that I love
In end eveything would turn out right

For the one that I love
Many a times I got very very hut
but because of the one that I love
In the end everything will be fine

It started without any reason
and will end with its excuses ...

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:00 PM

Tuesday, September 9

the way i'm behaving, it's scarring michelle
thanks girl, you were able to see I'm not alright
thanks for all the love, the concern and the comfort :)
i'll be okay i hope ...

" though you needed most was ben but still nvm,
when u need me, i'm here
though i may not be strong in words, but still i try my very best to comfort u
though somehow sometimes i felt that i have neglect u but still,
i try my best to fork out time to spend with u and meet up with u.
though my love is not as strong as ben's but still, i love you very very the much"
I love you too michelle :)

the gentle wind that blows on the same road with the familiar sorrowful melody,
I want to see you but is it possible for such a thing ?
I think of you and your everything more than anyone else,
I wake up alone again today, knowing that I cant make this dream come true,
I'm drowning in my thoughts of you.

♥ murasakiyukiko

4:25 PM

Monday, September 8

I miss my Jap Look
I wanna turn Blonde, my bf will kill me though -.-

I suit blonde hair what ... ...

Today's the 8th, he's not here with me though,
outfield and no handphone for 4 days 3 nights, haix

its been a long way darling,
we've been together so long that we might have come to see the sides
that we dislike about one another
but I love you anyway.
Happy 6th month, my Love for you is insatiable

♥ murasakiyukiko

9:09 AM

Friday, September 5

My new class is fun ... Lively and humorous people :)
I'll be enjoying my time with them in sem 2 I guess ... ...

I said that I'll do this when I'm bored in class
so here I am ...

1. Ben
2. xiaomin
3. michelle
4. chancey
5. xue er
6. sebas
7. akina
8. samuel
9. mac
10. shihao

Who is no 6 having relationship with: Stephanie ( dunno how to spell )

Is no.9 male/female: Male

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing: I dont think they'll work out

When you last chat with no 3.: wed night

What kind of music that no.8 likes: English and C-pop ???

Does no.1 have any siblings: he has 2 siblings

Will you woo no 3: No

How bout no 7: No

Is no 4 single: Yes

What's the surname of no5: Leo

What's the hobby of no 4: Smoking

Do no 5 and 9 get along: yes, used to be classmates and they sat beside one another !

Where is no 2 studying at: TP

Say something casual about no 1: He's cute

Have you tried developing feelings for no 8: brotherly love yes ...

Where does no 9 lives: Same block as me

What color does no 4 like: Green

Are no 5 and 1 best friends: No ...

Does no 7 like 2: Should be a yes, cos 2 is very friendly

How did you get to know no 2: She's my classmate in lower sec

Does no 1 have any pets: used to have rabbit and hamster I think

Is 7 the sexiest in the world?: No, number 1 is HAHAHS

♥ murasakiyukiko

10:52 AM

Wednesday, September 3

hang around with xue er today
was supposed to go to ikea but ta ... lazy la ...

xue er happily invited me to do sth for Ben at her place
she's sweet as me ... that's why I call her xue er Sweets :)

not done yet ... hahhahas

when I'm with xue er, we wont miss out camwhoring session !
her photography skills rocks

her photoshop skills too

you can see a lil of my new hair color here

HOT RIGHT !!?? This is Xue Er

I saw this before !!! crayon shin-chan's favourite

xiao xiong bing gan ^_^

remb back in primary school, maybe kindergarden

when its someone's birthday we'll get goodie bags from the person ?

We're too old for all these but she made me very happy when i received it

sweet memories desho !?

HAPPY ~ !

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:40 AM

Monday, September 1

Happy Birthday Xue Er Sweets !
another one legal hahhahs ...

and after Zettai Kareshi ... I'm watching Last Friends
Last Friends was aired way long before Zettai Kareshi was though ...

say byebye to my Japanese Barbie doll look ...

Purplish Black makes me look so ... ... weird ???

I'll get better pics of my hair up soon, I guess.

last thurs, 28/8 went to xm's friend, Daryl's chalet
hahhas it was fun, not bad lah...
His friends are crazy, wild and funny HAHHAHAHS
I was telling xiaomin that
" it seems like you'll just bring me along to all the chalets you gg... "
no fun without me lah hahahhahs I know you love me that much !!!
I said the same thing to Ben when I was sharing with him what happened
and what we did at the chalet, so Ben was saying
" xm bring you out ar, Bring You Out Ar ?
you're like a little pet like that bring you out,
you think what like bringing hamster out or what "
what the ???? -.- -.- -.-

He's been sweet, but it kinda weird
I had a great time questioning him and enjoying him being sweet
hahhahahs

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:33 AM