Monday, November 27

ytd help xm redo her manicure
first time that i tried drillin a hole in the nails
to attach a dangling thingy to it..
quite interestin
next time iim doing fer mysef... yeah !
afterwards i was experimentin on her hair
to help her style lyk the way she saw it in the mag.
anyhow here n there los...
i woke up 7 plus fer this this mornin...
plus puttin the make up n all fer her
iim thinkin of openin a saloon...
wahhas... no capital though
accompanied xm to the mrt to meet up
the rest of her cls.. i drop off at lavender to collect my passport

iim juz so reluctant to ring up my dad
so yup... that sucker...


junhui n xueer came ta my hse roun 11
chat a lil but some how de 2 were to engross wit e com
hahas had some fun here n there sharin or super lame jokes LOL
times have changed... ppl do change along as well...
maybe they are a lil different compared to e past
but... not very extreme so yupx..
i miss the past when things were simpler...

oh well...
treasure what we have here now...
' now' is a gift
that's y its called ' present '

Sentosa tmr ! yeah !!

♥ murasakiyukiko

7:21 PM

Friday, November 24

stayin at home these few days
cos i quarrelled wit my dad n iim broke..
so i packed my room
n i realised i got so many things then i dont touch em
AT ALL...
anyway... there's lots more to be packed..


i kinda got fucked up with ppl aroun me..
i find no meanin in havin to communicate
with those at home sometimes..
ESP my dad... he'll juz make u hate him at times
tt sucker... we'll see who takes care of him when he grows old
* em hem !!! yukiko's an only child.. *


i find it so difficult to make ppl understan these past few days..
wat the FUCK.. i reali got so FED UP
its lyk iim in a place i dont belong..
i find no point for my existance...
when will i find the place that i can feel more accepted?
how long more to wait?
when do our dreams come true?
& when do we noe tt we've reached the top???

did manicure fer xm today..
den we went ta bugis to get xm's tights n danglin thingy
we're browsin through the book at kino
lookin at those nail art designs n hairstyles
so tt i can do fer her on her prom
we happened to meet sherlyn n yan xuan
within a min.. we saw mrs wan...
hahas s'pore damn small..

♥ murasakiyukiko

9:10 PM

Thursday, November 16

sometimes when we just seek so much for the things that we dont have...
we forget all abou those that we already have...

' if we already have it, why bother, juz reach for the stars ! '
not that its totally wrong...
but we still have to learn to treasure what we have
cos in the end, u may end up not fufilling your dreams
worst of all ... to even lose those that had always been there...

dont be too obessed wit what others have...
they do come with a price that you'll have to pay dearly
but i cant deny the fact that i am human myself
n we all are greedy by nature
askin for somethin so longingly
and when we get what we want
we look forward to get even more...


HER STORY...
she asked for a place of her own ... ....
lost her grandmother, her love her freedom
she has a past that she cant forgive
only ppl who have reached the top will feel the icy cruel reality
she's on her way of no return
it may be shinin bright n thousands may admire what she has
deep inside she's juz all lost and without a hope for tomorrow... ...








why did you cry ?
why do you feel lost ?
why did you stop to move on ?
please tell me ...

when will I be an adult ?
how long do I still have to be a child ?
where did i started running ?
where am i running to ?

i am lookin for a place of my own
i dont see that place that i belong
' looking forward for a future '
that kinda thing...
i dont know if i can believe in it or not ...


you're standing at the banks of desperation
and i do wonder how's the scenery you're looking at now










if you were to meet up with such great sorrow
is it ok to share that with me ?
for that sake of your smile
what is there that i can do,
my precious one ?

my precious one ... ...

♥ murasakiyukiko

5:12 PM

Monday, November 13

haven been bloggin lyk as if for the past few decades...
exaggerations...

things have not been turnin out smooth
as those mo-fo at home juz wont understand
tt iim havin an IMPT EXAMINATION
tried cryin while u finish up the last few bits of chemistry
n ended up wettin the 10yr series?
or tt u're so reluctant to slp cuz u still have biology to revise
yet u fell asleep bcos u're too tired after all the cryin?
den gg to sch sayin tt evryone's sufferin from eyebags
but yrs are actually caused by cryin?
that's how my life was for the past week...

I FUCKIN THE HATE ALL OF YOU PPL AT HOME

dont come to mi with all the nonsense
juz bcos yr knn son didnt do this n tat
& after yr son happened to remb to do this n tat
dont come back to mi with a ' SORRY '
u still got the cheek to tell mi
'its bcos i was angry ma,, now tell u sorry la !'

if sorry is so useful... we aint no need no police i tell u...

iim not a medium for you to vent yr fustrations
when u are havin a bad day
or yr babygirl when u're happy...

DONT VENT YR FUSTRATIONS ON ME U FUCKERS !!!

dont try to comfort mi by tellin mi
'its lyk tt de la she din mean to '
tryin tell tt to yrself for 16 years of yr life
n see whether u can take it or not

FUCK OFF LAHZ










O levels are almost over
left wit POA n comb. Sci mcq....

and after so much i've done
u ch**by*s wont wanna go hong kong
u n yr mother n yr wife...
bend on makin my life miserable in diff ways rt?
u think always Louis Vuitton den can shut me up huh ?
ITS JUZ A STUPID BAG TAT COSTS 1 TO 3K
big deal ??

i juz wanna relax n unwind okay
if u fuckin de dont understand...






FINE !
i shall soon start on my new life after O's...
if one day i juz disappear ...
iim tellin u iim not comin back !

♥ murasakiyukiko

4:21 PM