sianx...
exams comin ler...
hais...

wanna sae thank u to CHANCE....
s0Oo nice... love u lots...
gave mi a new brand new ipod earpiece...
thnx brother!!

damn tired...

wa lau... dad sound so angry... wat's wrong!!!
lyk my fault lyk tt... as if i had a choice...
fuckin hell... toopid lahx...
de ish lyk i nid to pay ferr da trip myself!?
kaex... iim reali broke liao...
n i cant 4get bout da digi cam le...
but i wan it so badly...
n its not sth tt i can easily get lorx...
will money drop frm da sky ferr me???
so its lyk i nid to fork out $1098 plus da $580 now...

somebody help mi!!!

got lotsa n lotsa thins waitin fer mii to do
but i juz cant put myself to do em...




aHhh! i nid u by my side... ...

cryin in da darkness

tis pain ish killing me!!!

i forgotten da sweetness of anticipation
n merely remembered the devastation by disappointment...

♥ murasakiyukiko

9:21 AM

Saturday, September 24

S0Oo digusted by tis guy...
dun wanna tok bout him...
thinkin da world of himself...
eeeeeewwwww...
aniway.. i shldnt let tt MF spoil my mood..

its friday!!! yea...
n iim goin to beijing!!!
hahs... i'll b leavin on da 2nd of Nov..
wont b able to spent XM's bdae wt her tis year liao....
boi iim gonna miss evryone... but iim sure there's s0Oo much fun waitin ferr me out there....
wahhahas...

juz wait til i get my hands on EuU!
ish lyk iim reali into wantin tis digi cam los...
but my dad sure wont buy...
he may i guess... but definitely not da one tt i wanted...
pissed by him today too...

s0Oo mani ppl pissin me off.. hais
iim so busy recently
attendin tutions here there evryware...
yet he kept askin if i had planned fer more tution...
felt lyk givin him a tight slap on da face sia...
fuck damn it
wa lau... cant he see tt iim so not in a gd mood liao...
hack lahx i not goin eng tution
i cant b bothered aniwae....

missin him...
wat to do... hu ask him to b such a bad boi...
kena tis n tt...

miss him... ....

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:44 PM

Tuesday, September 20

A space ferr muah thoughts..

haiz...

was jus thinkin... bout wat i was talkin to jun about..
den it reminded me of another coversation i had wit my other fwens...

so are we jus bein childish fer de thins tat we do...
tat suntums leads to us regrettin our actions in life?
i was juz hopin tt wat i have done wont b a shadow tt will follow me around
or when will de memories jus follow round?

mayb wat she once said was right...
its their act of bein mature tt makes em even more childish...
i'd never thought tt i wld have sat down to talk to em bout tis kinda stuffs
but... hahas..

no one ish perfect... we all noes tt
but we still go around wit de hope in search of tt one person...

haix....
sad sad...

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:32 PM

Sunday, September 18

i used to be brought down by stupid thins...
now iim havin prob wit those i treasure da most...
n in which da relationship i have wit em r da most precious...

i dunno how all tis shyt came along
but its lyk tt..
my life juz sux n i have no other F***king options over it...

i admit dat i was wrong ferr once
yet now over nth tt i've done i get tis kinda treatment
its ok ferr ppl to vent their fustrations but not at me!!
and definitely not her!

watever lah......
when she told me she cant sleep at nite due to tis fwen prob she's havin
though it was sumtum til i get to read her msg...
ut my first reaction was to cal her up 2 assure tt's she's alrite...
n y is it so tt whenever she's in a bad mood i had to bare wit her attitude problem
when i had cared so much ferr her...

ok though she apologise n we both dont wanna spoil our relationship
but i have my limits...
its not tt i cant take it animore frm her
i have evry space in da world to bare wit her for she's my best dearie
i dont lyk tis situation tt iim in
but wat to do
cry los...

i cant be bothered by those ppl
though we were once close fwens
we werent da kind of best fwens...
unlike tis one...

fcuk damn it...

♥ murasakiyukiko

5:02 AM

Thursday, September 15

haiz gonna fall sick le...
my throat hurts...

sia la si bei xiong arhx.. gonna chiong ferr end of year .. kinda my onli hope...
showed improvements in my results if u out aside maths.. the rest are all okay...
maths... maths.. maths.
i used to noe tis subj.. i used to love it
but now its lyk my greatest enemy...

dunno y..nowadays ppl around kinda piss me off easily is it me or em?
i wonder how my attitude was lyk when i was reali goin through tt breakdown..
am i very irritatin or get agitated easily...
how i wanna noe...
cos now ish lyk though i accept ppl's apology iim still pissed off
cos i onli wan thins to b get on n over wit..
i dun wanna tok muc but all the sad stuffs...

its jus life... n its tt we have no control over

i wanna noe wat u're thinkin
i dun lyk ppl's questionin
i dun wish to b understood
yet i wanna understand

if i cld express in ani way
i wanna sae
tis is not wat i wan so if u pls jus let go
tis is not ware i wanna b
so pls help me leave
try n gimme a push cos i dunno ware to move on frm here

no way to say...

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:09 PM

Saturday, September 10

woke up at 6.20 plus..
gotta go to sch by 7.30 for dance.. den to attend the seminar
but before that i had to curl mel's hair first..

my holidays are soo fast... i had no tum to rest
which iim supposed to be anyway....

kaex... the seminar... in our mind its gonna b damned bored de lahx...
confirmed wit chop... but not so bad actually... da movie was nice to me...
it left me with a big big impression..i just cant get it outta of my head..
kinda sad..but realli entertainin n funny too...

den we went practisin n practisin n practisin.....
farewell nite was ok ok onli... wasnt reali tat fun as i thought it wld b...

haix...tired.. finally i'l be gettin some REAL rest!

hiax... lil boi sick.. dunno is iy reali bad or wat...
haix......... gonna go get some rest...

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:34 AM

Thursday, September 8

... came back frm camp liao...

it ended at 5 plus..
but da sec3s were together after da camp
gonna practise fer the farewell night dance...

humphx
though i didnt reali lyk the feelin of goin to camp but after all its was qutie enjoyable
if i were to keep aside the fact that i was reali tired
most of da games we had already done before
and da food was said to be sucky..i think onli da breakfast was the others were quite alrite

haix..reali tired... the ground i slept on gave me big backache the today...
but its ok...

wat reali gave me a big impression wasnt reali what we've done...
it was the camp chief...he's a man that i think i'll reali respect..
i dunno watta sae..
i think it was the things he taught us about respect and all his highlightin
bout it throughout the camp...
while it was da forst time we felt closer to da camp chief then to our own instructors...
i was talkin to damian in da bus bout it..
he thinks da same too.. den we sec3s SL started dancin at dominic's hse.. hahas
bought a skirt ferr da dance...
hope i get to wear it other den ferr da dance tmr nite...

haix... its late... butta i still gotta curl my hair before i go to sleep..
cos practically we'll have no tum tmr.. so mani gals hair are waitin fer muah to do..
BUSY!!!!

haiya darlinx's away..
miss him soo much...

love ya <3

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:37 PM

Tuesday, September 6

got oral exams
ok ok lahx.. can pass de..
when ferr both exam n dance
more enthu in da dance...
for sure de lahx...

'hey no hey now
evrybody put ya handsup i dee air...
ishka iskha..... >3
dhoom machale dhoom machale dhoom...>3
SALAMEEH !!!'

hahas those hu went fer SL today shld noe...
hahas... Dominic rocks!!! hahas

muah goin camp le
tmr... 2 daes 1 nite haix..
not veri interested in it..
we'll c how los...

darlinx...
sori hor.. i reali din mean to hurt u kaex..
n iim not angry wit ya...
lurve ya lots n lots....

sry yeh?...muackx....
jie jie sayang u lahx...
reali sry...

will miss ya ferr sure de...

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:10 PM

Sunday, September 4

busy day...
i thought i woul be late ferr da SL thingy but still ther were ppl who were later...
da best ish din even turn up...
thinkin bout wat to do ferr da farewell nite...humphx..
dance... dance..dance?
went ta dom's hse..watch da thingy to get da steps rite...
cool.. heys we put in effort da kaex...

rushed back home.. so tat can go out wit xe..
used my com to transfer somthin...
den we went shoppin...
fun... went her hse too...
havoc a lil... not reali lahx...

meet da lil boi....
3rd liao.. qutie fast huh?
bougth him tis shirt
wanted to buy billabong but he seems to have all of em alrdy..
rich mahx him... haix...

long dae.. tired le... nitex

muackx... my darlinx... iim reali happy...
heeheex (*0*)

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:22 PM

Saturday, September 3

yea!
its da last dae le
holiday liao!hahas
but wat da heck say... say tat givin us holiday.. still make us go back ferr wat?
wat's e point den?

gotta bring back alot of books to study.. humphx heavy say..
haix tmr still nid go sch busy sia
cos iim supposed to go out wit xe
den at nite its a must to find my darlinx
now lyk longer hours le
cos nid ta go back in da mornin ferr da farewell seminar

humphx...

sianx
slack at home after da meetin
bout e camp tis holiday...
sports leaders camp...
haiz
reali dun feel lyk goin...
summore monday got oral... tue n wed ish da camp...
thur ish da seminar...so iim left with fri.. luckily i din wanted to m'sia with my aunt
if not my sat n sun wld b gone...
shit...thins kinda sucky sia
thinkin of studyin den end up i dun even have tum to relax
how to study wit progress?
wat the heck la...

so late wonderin how's da lil boi...

must rest early tonite
tmr's a long day to go ...

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:08 PM

Friday, September 2

ta dae is a very nice dae
cos no nid go sch mahx
hahahas
den sum more holiday comin too
wahahaha

xe bdae today...
wished her over n over again.. nth do mahx
some lil boi dunno 12 nn den started to sleep
he not feelin well
whole nite headache n puked...
wat kinda of funny syndrome sia?
haix... worried ferr him

watever ...thinkin of goin shoppin wit daddy
but lazy to lahx
slack at home first...
den xm ask me wanna go east coast park wit her not..
so went her house n cycled from ther to ecp los
sia la
in da rain ...
we cycled... wth!?!?!?

but kinda fun
spent my whole dae wit her...
when we went back
at her home den she asked me..
wat happened to my leg?
i took a look n den realised i was bleedin!
humph.. wonderin how i got it...
funny sia... i din even noe

kaex... iim dumb.. happy?

yay !! holidays comin... the 3rd oso comin...
hahas ...
fun fun fun...

love ya darlinx...
but stop callin me dumb n all tat i'll reali get angry...
forgotten bout all my lolipop le huh!?
humhx...
naughty lil boi

blehx!

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:27 PM

Thursday, September 1

half day today...
helped out ferr da decorations in da hall ferr the teachers' dae celebration thingy...
ballons n stuffs...dey kept burstin givin me shocks here n there..low quality de...
watched da concert.. all watched before le so i wasnt excited at all.. sianx...

michelle goin chalet
tis few daes she call al wrong timin sia...

nvm... used to it can le

sianx lahx.. actually wanna go back watch da teachers play soccer... ( to c how badly dey die)
toopid guy dun let me in... wtf...
went to slack around with jessica...
den met my darlinx....

yawnx....

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:21 PM