Monday, August 29

humphx...
its sundae.. nid ta go back to sch tmr.. haix sad..
but ani way went out wit muah sistaz...
xm n jessica...

wahaha...

we went ta watch da maid...
kinda scary la but not very scary onli sum parts...
but in the end its a sad sad story...
kaex almost cried but din.. cos wearin contacts harder fer moi to cry..
hahas... Next we went shoppin!!! bought a shirt n a mini cardigan onli
haix sad to sae nv bring alot of money ferr me to shop til crazy...
took me quite some tum ta find da rite one.. but still cant find sia
so i gave up lahx... buy e common one los...
had a very early dinner at LJS... laugh until my face almost cramp sia..
all da crap n nonsense down ther...
hahahas...^0^
happy...^_^

meet my lil boi...
he oso crap la...
kept on sayin iim dumb n slow...
kaex lahx... better den him
so clever n fast in reactions yet refused to put em into gd use...
ya noe wat i mean...

hahas...
fun dae...

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:06 PM

Saturday, August 27

saw w.b fwenster...
saw da pics..
thought of da stuffs tat we once did..

was it really my fault den?
how am i suppose to go through all the feelins
tellin myself u dont belong to me....

okies watever...

wat was all those stuffs u said in the past suppose to mean?
how wld ya lyk it if sumone says he/she nided u yet actually
used u against his/her stead?
in the end... u hav ta help da 2 if em get 2gether..
funny funny...

once longin ferr wat i've denied
now achin fer wat i cldnt get by

sad to say evrythin's over....

♥ murasakiyukiko

6:11 PM

Thursday, August 25

goin to shanghai bahx...
for the end of year english trip...
but feel lyk goin to beijing since next most probably i'll be goin shanghai...
but lyk all the same ...
wastin my time in hall...

BIO BIO BIO BIO BIO !!!!!!

biology paper... thursday..

time flies... its already august... lookin back at the times...

sad.. chance... y do have to make thins dis way?
saddened... my bro arhx...
all wasted... all wasted...

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:54 AM

Wednesday, August 24

maths...
knew how to do yet not enough time

sianx..

mother tongue
first to finish... slept ferr bout 15 mins...

met dearie michelle to go walk walk.. sunddenly sae wann watch.. but i didnt feel lyk so we jux went around... bought new perfume..wanted to buy e christian dior one but i haben finish da one at home...2nd option ish da larvin brand new product.. but the toopid shop din sell ... so have anna sui one... $48.. abit heartpain but i super de lyk it los...
thinkin of buyin da dunno love dunno wat one la...
got da strawberry loliipop smell...
alot of thins to buy...
but haix...


dearie ar..
she constantly not not feelin well so decided to home early..
hope she's alrite....

slack.. slack ... slack

no paper tmr but go tthe most important paper.. pure Biology
fail den sure die.. 100%.. plus chop...

tok to him.. but bery sianx...
exams period.. all silent mode liao..
hahas...
love ya n i reali miss u alot kaeXx

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:34 PM

Tuesday, August 23

physic n chemistry paper taday...
okies.. the paper was 'doable' but fcuk it the chem paper..
put in so much effort ferr the equations stuffs.. come out 2 questions onli..
wth man.. watever... not tat bad can liao..
bio test nearly die... whew...
was revisin ferr pos in cls..
when farah did thins tat shocked me..
hey we've got tele ... dunno wat u call it lah...
chinese cals it xing you ling xi...
hahaz... lyk her soo much
den comes my nightmare....
ORRRGGGGGHHHHHH
tis time round dunno wat happen to my Poa..
confirm die til veri jia lat.. haiz..
but nvm la over all wont so bad cos my previous paper quite well done...

sianx la ...took 17 home wit xm n jessica.. she didnt even spoke a word... dunno wat happen.. some tum her world ish juz too complicated fer my kinda mind to comprehend...
i was jux thinkin juz thinkin...
i still may take time to try ta underatand in da past but after all these years
i think i'd gave up.. haix so long she happy can liao...

dun have to think tat much la.. learn ta fang de kai alot liao..
take it as i cant be bothered or watever...
waste of time onli..

reached home n saw yanli's email.. sOoo touched..
speechless... now den ppl came to realised how hard its been on me.. nv too late...
onli bein greedy to ask y didnt all this came when i was reali broken apart...
but tat's wat makes me strong now...memories of the inevitable pain

still lookin in a daze.. da kinda of depressionist look..

return home to find out tat i actually still have lotsa thins to do in my life..
gotta carry on... humphx..
mr tay's fav. 'carry on '
hahas wonder how's moi eng paper.. shld b alrites.. xm said she jux passed...
another killer tmr...
mathematicx.. so zhun summore...

put maths n mt together...
a sure killer and a sure sat sat one..
k la... not to evryone..but to me its so lohx..
haiz...

damn sianx nv see dearie online...she workin til so late?
think she jux tired... hope she dun tire herself too much..
think she has benn constantly thinkin negatively..
its juz how we take thins lah..
though now i'm able to sae but i'm still doin it sometum..
not easy...not easy..

one dae nv irritate me at nite u'll die huh...
toopid... stop behavin lyk me lahx....
no oringinality...:)
but ya still moi dearest though u irritate me soo
muackz

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:00 PM

Monday, August 22

...
woke up... cant move my left arm...numb...
funny sia..i raise it up wit muah rite hand den it juz fell on me again...

slack awhile den got tuition...
physics n chemistry..tmr paper... still got poa ta study on my own...

kaex den ask michelle wanna have dinner wit me nots.. still e same lah she..
very +=undecidesive=+ (ish tis how i spell?)

watever in the end came my hse to have dinner.. and use the com .. cos she constantly tellin me her toopid com's ganna drive her crazy..
kaoz eh.. den suddenly nid ta rush down to go tp the airport wit my daddy
cos ah yi .. my stepmom come back liaoz.. yea!!
it means shoppin!!
hahas...

was tokin to my darlin when my dad suddenly blurt out 'wth..fcuk man'
i was lyk shock wit my darlin down there los!!! lol
he actually noes the word!!! tat's wat i told him he juz said 'tsk'
diaox.. almost peng...

hahas
usin the com nid to relax..wrote a testi ferr darlinx
... i've been studyin almost the whole dae los

... sleep time...
tmr's paper ish beckonin me to study...
hahas...

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:32 PM

its the end of the day...eRm..think ish the start...still awake at this time...

writin my blog ferr the dae 200805....

woke by jess' msg... told me she not goin..headache..watever
kao..cip... 8.30am sianx... haix
sat lehx..wanna sleep more ish so obvious de...

nvm got to sch...
daddy kee siao wanna gimme $60 willingly..
dun take oso wasted...hahax

durin cip..went ta trim the bushes..quite fun lahz...arm pain after tt..
slack under the tree on the stone bench...
easy job lahx

went back onli did 1 hr today... who cares.. chat alot wit Naz tadae..she a nice person
sleep.... ZzzzZzz
had tutiion CAs up must work hard... study study study...
wanted to go ta airport wit xueqi ta study
but in the end didnt go..thinkin tt i cant make it through the nite...
study lehx u reali think I sooo enthu.. hardworkin n guai arhx
enthu maybe lahx but confirm not in studies de..
who's not lyk tt?
hahas

met my darlinx... so damn late..
but nvm cant b bothered...
haix... tmr liao..gotta go back sch so fast again...
but weekends oso i study.. wth ... waitin ferr moi holiday
still nid go back sch summore wa lau
sae give us holidae le still ask us to go back ferr wat lahx
IRONIC ppl...

gimme me some motiviations bahx
gotta put through tis man...

love love love....
buaix....

♥ murasakiyukiko

4:45 AM

Saturday, August 20

...sleepy
sleepy...

eng compo paper..
waited n waited... for 2 pm...
dunno y ppl kept askin the toopid ques..
ware got break lahz.. have oso u huan lo !?

sianx..by right paper in the hall..think E6 nice to play arhx..ask we all to walk here n ther..
lan arhx...
when to downtown to slack wit xm.. awhile onli
cos got alot of 'wonderful' children ard...hahas
....
nth much...
was tokin to jun..
all his nonsense in sch.. kaox ehx
pro lahx u...

take care my bro...so nice to tok to u...
hahas miss me hor!

love ya my darlinx...
f*** u still haben tag on my blog...

♥ murasakiyukiko

3:39 PM

Friday, August 19

i like the mornin's weather...
revisions over n over again ferr geography n social studies...

at least the paper wasnt as bad as b4... still can do..
not that the paper has always been hard lahz...ish tt this time round got study mahx
makes difference noe...

the invigilator damn pro..dunno wat's the prob with her.. darn clumsy...
tok oso dunno tokin wat..come in onli irritated the whole klass
end up we all oso laughin at her..
wa kao eh
diaox diaox diaox...
thinkin she might b tat teacher...oso not sure...
haiz sian...
went home
next up english paper..in da hall..makes me very nervous.. the kind of atmosphere therr..
watever...
thinkin tat wau! fridae's comin yet got paper in the afternoon...
the sch think we got alot of energy or wat?
how to concentrate?sch hours long enough liao den now exams in the afternoon?
duno wat ish this man..
its reali pathetic when i cant do anithin bout it
actually have a nice plans waitin ferr me..haiz..waste of time

wat to do...there's just somethins tat we have no control over

i was tokin to aisyah on msn..thinkin bout chance..my dear brother..
dunno how's he feelin..hope i can help but i dunno how..not sure not sure

UNCERTAINTY

pKc...
here i am once again tokin bout the lost of my most beloved name
my most cherished time tat i've spent
how could this happen?
if onli i cld turn back time...
but wat wld become of us then?
its not that we dun noe wat's ferr i own gd..
admittin the fact tat our past was a big mistake...
but now its all different and its not to the extent tat we all hace to be strangers rite?

depressed...the negative thoughts are comin back
the sad sad gal...
i thought i've become myself again
or am i lying to myself?
i'm not the gal i used to be...
or have i always been this way?
i dun even noe myself..
who am i den?

in a place tat never did exist i wld lyk to stand and be myself
n may it be tt u stay as who u are...
never gonna change the fact of being who u are
just remain the same please...

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:42 PM

Thursday, August 18

haiz
tmr ish comb. humans paper sia
geog lehx

feel lyk goin out but there's so much waitin ferr me to be done

i'm not workin hard
cos i'm usin the com!!!!!
juz not in the mood...
can't find the attitude to study
nth motiviates me...
in studies
guess it has always been so..
who bothers bout textbooks n stuffs...
but tt's wat we have no choice over...

gtg the sucky textbks are waitin ferr muah to touch em...
hahahas...

♥ murasakiyukiko

1:28 PM

Wednesday, August 17

so long nv write moi blog le..

mani mani thins ferr me ta update..
030805...
a happie dae...
090805...
wonderful fireworks...
130805...
thins a lil suxky...

wat ever....

I'll still stay happy w/o u
caz i dun mind
n u dont matter..
kaex
my guai lan attitude ish lookin ferr me once again..
the kind of words t i spoke
its juz me...

i Don'T cHanGe mYsElf
cOs tHeRe aRe mAn! sides of mE tt EvEn mY cl0SeT FwEns hAbEn sEen...
....

sad.. E6 lost in the inter class
but its ok
we enjoyed quite alot...
hAHahas
the funny moves of zai
farah's "gentle " way of passin a ball
aisyah n melissa "'contact"

k dun b so bad fun la..

xueqi came my hse ferr dinner..
nth much to tok bout
cauz our lifes juz been borin
how can our life br excitin in such a pathetic place tt we're in?
haiz
in mii deep thoughts
thinkin too much..

miSs!nG Him @ n!tE
cAuZ I n!D hIm By mY s!dE...

♥ murasakiyukiko

2:03 PM